My Treasures

In times of happiness... in times of loneliness... they are the ones who stand by my side and comfort me... they are the ones who cheer me up and utter every kind word just to make me smile... 


Friends... they are treasures to me. They make me smile. They make me feel comfortable. They make me feel cherished. They are the ones whom I share my happiness with. 


Friendship is a gift... a precious gift from God. I can proudly say that I had found true friends.  Friends that I can trust. Friends that I can run to whenever I have problems. Friends that will love me whenever I feel alone. Friends that will wipe off my tears when the pain, i can't control. Friends that will listen to my crazy little talks. Friends that will say mean things in front of me and make me realize that I did wrong things but will never say these behind my back. Friends that will help me choose right decisions. Friends that will support me. Friends that will tell me, "I'll be your smile for now" whenever I feel sad. Friends that will always wish for my happiness. And mostly, friends that will accept me for who I am.

Just imagine a life without friends.To whom will you run to when you have burdens? To whom will you share your secrets?

I had experienced a lot of trials involving my friendship with other people. One experience is that I had accidentally shouted at my friend because she was insisting a thing that my other friend can't do. She was often telling that promises are meant to be broken and that my other friend can't do what he had promised to do. At first I was just letting her tell what she had to tell but after a while she was repeating and repeating what she had told him and I got a bit irritated so I had accidentally shouted at her. She stopped and walked away. I felt so guilty that I had shouted at her; I went after her, I was apologizing but she kept on saying, " Oo na! Sorry! Bobo kasi ako! Tanga ako!" I didn't mean to hurt her feelings nor do I want her to  feel dumb. I tried to ask for forgiveness but she won't listen, then that's it... I cried. After a while she approached me and apologized too. Still friendship won. :)


With this experience, I realized that true friendship involves understanding. It involves humility, love  and acceptance. True friendship can't be easily broken. Yes, trials may come... challenges may arise...  and it is up to us to decide whether to fight for the friendship or to let these circumstances break that friendship.  God gave us these challenges to prove the meaning of true friendship; He gave us these challenges to realize His gift of friends. So cherish your friends because once you lose them, they'll be hard to find. It's like finding a diamond on the rest of the floor glass.


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She Almost Hated You

Once... twice... thrice.... how many times should she forgive you?

She loved you with all her heart, gave you everything but you just broke her apart. Her time, she wasted all for you. You told her you love her but it wasn't true. You turned around and with no words to say, you left her alone... honey, you walked away. She cried for you all day long and at night she couldn't sleep, she wondered what went wrong. The lies you've said... the promises you've made... the tears she'd shed... the pain can't fade. 

One day you told her, "If you really love me, let me go... be happy for me... I'm sorry... I love you but I do love her more than you." Upon hearing those words, tears fell down from her eyes, she couldn't let go but she had no choice. 

After a while, you came back. You said you were sorry, "Please welcome me back."  She forgave you because she loves you so dearly. You told her you'll change, it sounded so clearly. Everyday you'll tell her, "I'll be with you forever." She didn't noticed that forever means never. The lies you've said... the promises you've made... the tears she'd shed... the pain can't fade. 

A tingling feeling in her she feels inside, whenever you're around... right there by her side. Your warm embrace had given a smile on her face. And a love so tender she wanted you to render. Your sweet voice...  your radiant smile... your gorgeous face... it all completed her day.

She thought she'll never wake up from that dream again but one day, she asked you to leave the other girl. You said, "I'm sorry, I can't... she had helped me and all I can give her is a longer relationship". She insisted but you just answered, "If you really love me, wait for me." She waited for you, again and again she forgave you, again and again you hurt her, again and again you broke her apart. The lies you've said... the promises you've made... the tears she'd shed... the pain can't fade. 

After sometime she wondered, "Do I really love him that's why I'm waiting for him? Or do I just need him? Or I'm just that stupid to believe in him?" This question wasn't answered and she continued waiting. All day.. all night... she waited... waited for the answers... waited for you... 


Until one day... you said, "I won't be coming back... I'm sorry..." Again you had hurt her... never did you noticed that she loved you so much. The lies you've said... the promises you've made... the tears she'd shed... I think the pain WON'T fade.

Before she leaves, she wants you to know... she's happy for you; she's happy for you two. Just one wish from her: "Please... please don't ever come back... 'coz if ever you would... if ever you have plans to... I don't know what to do. I'm not even sure if I'll welcome you back. 'Coz for all those times, it was just now that I had realized... I had wasted my time on you." 

It was surely a challenge for her to be in loved with that guy (if she was really in loved with him) ...

"No one said love would be easy they just said it would be worth it in the end"

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It's Life's Twists and Turns

Somewhere in your life, you find yourself wondering why you had made the wrong decision... why you had committed a mistake... why you had chosen to do this instead of doing that...


Life can be so tricky. It can offer you dilemmas... problems... and many other confusing events. And as human beings, it is really hard for us to be in such situations. It is hard for us to make decisions at once. We need  more time... more space...


I once experienced myself in a situation where I chose what I thought was right even if most people say that it was a wrong choice and I should have chosen the other one. At first, my decision turned out to be right. Everything was fine.. everything seemed to be perfect. Yes, there were lots of challenges but I had passed it all for I thought it was worth fighting for. But after a while, something went wrong.. it was just a like a storm that passed by, and everything... everything was ruined. Now, everything's gone and I have lots of regrets. Yes, I admit, there's so many things I wish I didn't do.


If only I could bring back time... if only I can go back to where it all had started...  I should have chosen the other one; I should have listened to everybody's advice. But it was far too late for that realization; no one could bring back time.  There's nothing else I could ever do to bring it back.


Now, what I can do is that to make things right. I must correct my mistakes. It's true that I can't bring back time... but I can surely be careful and make correct decisions the next time around. I should start all over again. That decision sure did a lot of changes in me. I admit I hadn't notice that it was already making my life miserable.. miserable than before. It was again too late when I had noticed that. 


I was still thankful besides these circumstances. Why?... It is because I learned a lot of things through them.I learned that I must first think twice or even thrice before making my decision because it was not that easy to choose especially when both choices seem right. I had also learned that sometimes... i mean most of the times... the people around you could help in your decision making because they also know what's best for you and that they want you to have the best of everything. 


Yes, I tell you... regrets are most likely to happen when it's already to late and they come when you least expected them... 


So make up your mind; be sure of your decisions so that in the end... there will be no regrets... only successes... no sorrows... only laughters.... :)


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I'm Missing Her :'(

Have you ever tried missing a person? 


Me? Yes... the worst thing is that I know that the person I miss wouldn't come back She's gone... gone forever... the only thing that would make her live is her memories... the memories that I shared with her... the memories that we shared together.


She was one of the most important persons in my life. She was the one who took care of me during my growing years... She accompanied me during my first steps. She was always there at my back, ready to catch me if ever I fall. She was the one who'd crack a joke and make me smile. I admit she had spoiled me.  Yes... she did correct my mistakes but she had corrected it in a unique way... she had corrected it in a very gentle way. Oh... I really miss her so much! :'(


I remember a time when my mom called me to sleep. We were in our province that time. I was playing with my cousins and I don't want to sleep yet. My mom got mad and ran after me.. scolded me and was about to slap me. She ran towards us, told my mom, "Hayaan mo sila maglaro. Bata nga e."  and told me, "Sige, laro lang kayo. Mamaya pag tinawag ko kayo para matulog, tulog na ha?" 


I think that's one of the reasons why I often listen to her more than my mom; she explains things in a mild and loving manner. She was so unique... she was a one of a kind grandmother. 


I remembered the time when she was still with us. She was already weak. She was not okay. She was in pain. You can see it in her. You can feel it but you know what... every time you ask her, "Nanay, ayos lang po ba kayo?" She would answer, "Oo naman" 


There was a time that she couldn't almost stand up. I asked her again, "Nanay, ayos lang po ba kayo?" she answered, "Oo naman, matulog ka na. Gabi na." As I turn around to check if she was really okay, I saw her in pain. She was walking so slowly. She was holding my grandfather's medicine and was about to give it to him. I felt how caring she was. I felt how loving she was. You could see in her the pain but still she tried to hide it from us. She don't want us to worry about her. 


One night I heard that she was in the hospital. They said that she was already weak and they had no choice but to admit her. Even in those times, she would always say, "Uwi na tayo. Ayos lang ako." She was still weak so they still let her stay in the hospital. 


She called and I had talked to her on the phone, i didn't know that would be the last time that I will hear her voice. I didn't know that would be our last conversation.  She told me, "Anak, magpakabait ka ha? Galingan mo pagaaral mo. Wag kayo magaaway ng kapatid mo ha?" Those were her last words. I didn't know that those words meant goodbye. 


The next day, my aunt called. She told us that my grandmother is in a life and death situation.  Afterwards, she told us that they were already reviving her.  I asked, "Tita, di po tayo iiwan ni Nanay di ba? Di ba po?" She answered, "Hindi. Hindi niya tayo iiwan." I was crying and crying... tears won't stop. Until the evening, I waited for the news. Inside me, there's a voice saying... "Let go.." I didn't know what the voice meant before and i just thought, "I will but why?" After a while, my two other aunts came and said, "Shaira, anak, wala na si Nanay." I can't hide the pain I felt, tears went down and I can't stop. I embraced my aunt so tightly. It was like I wouldn't let go. 


All of our memories went back. From the very start she was there and until the very end she was by my side; telling me to be good and reminding me that I was loved. You know... I couldn't remember any bad memory from her. I think all of my memories with her are worth remembering for.


I miss her so much. I really do. If only she was still here. I would let her know that I love her with all my heart. I really do. I would let her know that her memories will always be mine. I treasured her... and I will treasure her for the rest of my life.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH NANAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I MISS YOU!

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