Undecided

Yeah just in my first sight

You somehow gave me light

As I always know

I'm hopeless and nowhere to go

I am much lonely in my life

And somehow got to cry

I don't know where I'll go

No definition,whatever so

I was not expecting anything

Anyone who'd give me feeling

Of inevitable happiness

In teenager's being careless

Now you made a move

For me to know you

And who wants to prove

What you want me to do

Didn't expect you to find me

All I know is I'm alone

But they say you like me

But I again scared to be alone

You don't really know

How much I admire you

And I got light even though

I'm still in risk with you

I just want to know more

Who and what  you are

In that inner, inner core

And to go so much far

 If you only know what's inside

My heart is filled with fear

That I will get hurt and cry

And bear pain that's sheer

How lucky would be of me

If you would be true

But if you'd be just a pebble in sea

I don't know what should I do

So think now of what you're in

Just stop if you'd be a fool

Leaving a guy cryin'

And a heartly pain that's full

-Uncertain by M.W.Q.T

Love is happiness for those who found their pair but sadness for those who had not. Some may experience true happiness, and true happiness all along; while some may experience sadness, sadness forvever... a sadness that seems to be curse. Some may experience happiness at first, where everything seems fine... everything seems perfect; but afterwards, sadness may conquer those joys... and when that happens, it's like everything was taken away form you. There also comes a time when life becomes so tricy, you know that the happiness that you want is there, right in front of you. You can chase it and have it but then there's a possibility that you'll lose it too... there's a possibility for that happiness to drift away. On the other hand, you can ignore it so that there will be no risks... so that you will not worry about getting hurt but then you'll die wondering what could have happened when you had taken those risks. Besides, what the use of the word "love" if your not willing to take its risks.

Some people don't want to believe in love... not because they don't know how to love... not because they don't want to be loved... but because they are afraid to love and be hurt; they are not yet ready to take the risks of loving... or maybe, they just had enough pain. 

Maybe in their past, they had been hurt so much. Maybe too much that they don't know what love is right now. Maybe too much that they think that every person is the same from one another... that if the person in his/her past is a fool... if that person fooled him/her or played with his/her emotions or feelings... the next one that will come will do the same to him/ her. Maybe too much pain that they try to be that numb so as not to be hurt again... or maybe, they already have those feelings for a person... maybe they are experiencing love again but they try to control it... with the same reason... SO AS NOT TO BE HURT AGAIN.

As I said earlier, it can't be called "love" if your not willing to take the risks. You just need to be strong, you just need to believe that it will work out... and if it doesn't. I know God has better plans. As they say: "Everything happens for a reason" :) 

 "You're Not Prepared to be in Loved with Me"